I am really messed up lately. I can't sleep... I don't want to eat.... I am mad at my husband .. disappointed in myself... and overall too busy to think about. Between work, kids, hubby, breathing, SCA and everything else.... I need a vacation. I am angry, overworked, sad, tired, impatient, crabby, tearful and happy all in one moment - and it sucks!
Instead of a normal entry I am going to play the journal game... I keep seeing this on people's journals and have decided to do it myself. It is called "101 Thing About Me" and it is a list - streming thought of 101 things you may or may not know about me. Hope you like it....
1) I have 14 seperate tattoos
2) I am pagan
3) My husband is morman
4) I hate coconut
5) I am a pretty good programmer
6) I can sing
7) I can even play the flute
8) I dislike eel
9) I never had any pets growning up
10) I have an older brother
11) I am in the
12) I think that I am too short
13) I slept with a teddy bear every night until the fire (9-5-02)
14) I hate guns
15) My husband has guns
16) I keep thinking something bad is going to take my children away from me
17) I am afraid of the dark
18) I had braces
19) I still have my tonsils
20) I talk in my sleep
21) When I was a kid I used to try and break my arm - just wanted to feel the pain
22) I once spent a week trying to get a sticker out of a salt bin at the elementary school - hi char!
23) I am a gamer
24) I have green eyes - but they were bright blue till I was 8 years old
25) I used to have light brown hair in ringletts
26) I hate big dogs
27) I hate walking alone
28) I am obsessed with Viggo Mortenson / Aragorn
29) I have three families which I call my own and one unknown to me
30) I used to have a total crush on Axl Rose
31) I dated a women for 8 years
32) I had a long term affair on my husband - which he agreed to
33) I have been to france and I want to go back
34) I want to go to India
35) I want to quit my job and write for a living
36) I think my kids are too good to have me for a mom
37) I like anime - but I like it better when watching it with Chris
38) My husband drives me nuts
39) I am adopted
40) I always wanted to relearn how to play the piano
41) My first job was housekeeping for Mr. D's donut shop - lasted 3 days ... had to clean toilets
42) I used to shoplift
43) I have stolen money from my mother's purse
44) I can't see well - no matter what the dr. does
45) I hated being pregnant - though birth was easy
46) I am afraid of fire in all its forms now
47) I hate smokers
48) My husband smokes
49) I cheated on my confirmation exam in Sunday School
50) I failed out of college - twice in one year
51) I am an overanxious person
52) I am paranoid
53) I believe in psycis and tarot cards
54) I believe that I can change my world all by myself
55) I feel that the fire was a result of bad karma
56) I don't like having sex with my husband right now
57) I was on anti-depressants for a while
58) I fought with my mother
59) I can rollerblade
60) I can ski
61) I can play golf - pretty darn good
62) I never want to go to a high school reunion
63) I have been sexually assulted
64) I have been hit by a boyfriend
65) I used to cut myself - a cutter
66) I have had a mohawk
67) I have never smoked pot
68) I was a unpopular in middle school
69) I hung out with alot of people in high school but was fairly unknown
70) I renamed a boy my junior year in high school- from Russel to Austin.
7!) Everyone still calls him Austin - even the yearbooks
72) I had sex in the stage crew room at my high school
73) I had oral sex in a bathroom at high school
74) I used to lie more than tell the truth
75) I miss having sex and spending close time with Chris
78) I miss my high school boyfriend - Jeremy
79) I was a married man's mistress
80) I can still read french
81) I slapped someone hard enough to draw blood
82) I am a selfish person
83) I wish I had finished college
84) I used to be on the Alter Guild at church
85) I miss my first cat - Sorcha
86) I have a terrible memory
87) I am bad with money - terrible and horrible, really
88) I crave attention... from everyone
89) My dad called me Beanbag
91) I spent a summer at camp being named Jayme
92) I love photography
93) I love Jimmy Buffit
94) I have been broke enough to sell all my stuff
95) I dies my hair greenn in High school and hid it from my mom for a week
96) I bite my nails
97) I don't vote - ever and never have
98) I was raised to be a 50's housewife - I rejected it completely
99) I don't think I am doing what I should be with my life
100) I started wearing glasses in the second grade
101) I am not happy with my life.