I know it is not the morning or even a weekday or anything special. I just felt the need to write. My gang was just over and things were a little shaky feeling. I hope that this does not last because I think that we should all still be able to get along even though feelings have been hurt. Dan came tonight and I was happy to see him. I guess I have to admit that he has been growing on me and I might be able to say I really like hanging out with Dan� hmm, maybe it is time to runaway to India??
About the other one� the boy. It was harder than I thought it would be. I�ll leave it at that� ball is in his court, waiting for the rest of my life. Sorry if those statements make it harder. My heart is in control on that one.
Saw Sarah today. She is my sister� not by blood or by marriage or anything really. I have taken her as my sister 7 years ago and will never think of her as anything else. I am glad though that I get to be there for her and be here big sister. Life is going really good for her right now and I think it is the coolest. Her girlfriend is the sweetest thing. I am so happy for her.
This is a totally boring entry and though I feel the need to write � it is not this. Not sure why .. but I feel that there are some emotions that I should not say here anymore. I am so lost right now and all I want to do is go to where I feel at home; but that home is not open to me anymore. I miss it.
This is dumb.
I am dumb.
�I never believed it could happen to me Something like this only happens to dumb girls Taking themselves too seriously I was so damn smart I was the one girl Who never believed it could happen to me Something like this only happens to somebody else� � lucy Woodard: Dumb Girls
Wake up tech� smell the reality and keep moving south.